Keep Moving...

I received word that my book is not the right fit for the agent I sent it to.  Does it feel uncomfortable?  Yes.  Am I crushed?  No.  I really want to work with an agent and I want it to be the right match.  

There is nothing more magical than someone who believes in you, who admires what you do. 

So until I find that person, I will keep moving forward... one moment at a time. 

The next book...

It is so interesting how it works... writing the second book.  It is like painting.  There is a time when you just move on.  I had some pieces that just didn't fit in my first book, so I set them aside. But it makes sense now, they were for the second book.  My story about Aggi is not done yet.  She has so much more to say and to do.  It is very exciting writing for her when she is further along in her process.  How does it work for you? 

Believe...

I sent it.  I sent my manuscript to be considered by an agency.

I feel sick to my stomach and want to celebrate at the same time.  It will either be something they will be interested in, or not.  If it is, I will be very happy.  I did a lot of research and found someone I would be honored to represented by.  If it does not work, that is O.K., it has to be the right fit.  I honor that too.  

I am going to sit now, try to clear my mind and imagine my future.  Touching people's lives with my words.  It is a beautiful thing...

Agent Query...

I queried an agent and heard back on Halloween of all days.  They asked me to send my manuscript for consideration.

I can tell you... the little voices in my head are saying, "They are going to laugh at you!"  

They are strong.  

They can be overwhelming. 

Though I am by myself right now, I feel embarrassed and humiliated.  I know this is not what you expect me to say.  I am just speaking my truth.  I hope if there is another writer out there that thinks they are the only one that feels this... they are not alone.  

I am incredibly grateful to have the opportunity to send this agency my work.  My positive thoughts will eventually quiet my negative thoughts.  It will pass, it always does.  Believe me. Though I want to hide away, I will make another baby step forward into the future I want to create.  

Wish me luck...

Her name...

I have been asked several times how I came up with her name.  Here is a section from my book.

Her name is Agatha.  She was named this because her mother told her all she did was cause agony in her life.

Aggi got home late, so she became invisible as she walked in.  She did not know her parents could see her.  They told her she could turn invisible since she was a kid.  They thought it was funny.  Aggi knew nothing else.  They had kept her isolated.  She was their experiment to see what they could get away with.  It was purely for their own entertainment. 

Thank you...

I am so honored that people have been visiting my blog.  Thank you so much.  I can not tell you have deeply that touches me.  I just want to say how much I appreciate it...

Questions about me...

When did I start writing?

Secretly... a few years.

Why not before?

I never thought I could.  When I was growing up, my mom gave my spelling books and homework to my little brothers because they would be president someday.  I would marry a rich man.

What changed?

I did.  I had a life changing experience three years ago.  I decided to face my fears and live.  It is not always easy, but I am grateful for every moment.  

How did AGGI start?

I was sitting at the dinner table with my children.  We were talking about weird things parents say to their kids and they simply believe them.  An example is, a watermelon will grow in your stomach if you eat the seeds.  Think about it... that is scary!

That is when my character Aggi popped into my head.  She was born, and now I need to tell her story.